How I went from :\ to !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Earlier this week, I had written and scheduled this blog:

Honesty

To be completely honest, lately I've been attacked by a case of the self-doubts.

While I do intrinsically believe that everything eventually works out for the best, it's the lapse in time inbetween now and then that's causing some concern.

How much longer? Can I keep going like this? Is there hope?

There has to be hope.

But, how long can one survive on faith alone?

Maybe all you can expect to survive on is faith.

I need a sign. Seems like a lot to ask for, but I do ... please, Universe, send me a sign that hope exists.

A few hours after writing this, I received two signs which might sound weird to you, but just hear me out. I went to look through an office supply catalog for a self-inking stamp. I found a sample that had my first name and radio man's last name. Not saying I'm still hung up on radio man, but still ... that kind of blew me over. A few pages later, a stamp with my exact birth date.

Signs, I'm telling you, signs.

This past work week was rough,rough, rough. By the time the work week was done, I was at a particularly low point and so ready for the weekend. Driving towards the freeway, I received a mystery call and a following voice mail informing me that something amazing had just happened.

A few weeks ago, while perusing my blogs, I came upon this contest ... nominate someone you know, or yourself, for a makeover tv show. In need of a new beginning and new exterior to go with my new life, and figuring I had nothing to lose, I sent in my nomination, was honest about my size, and included a couple of casual pictures.

The call was from the company's headquarters ... in the voicemail, a large group was cheering for me. They loved my story, and was I still interested?

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I pulled over, and then I did the dance of joy.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited.